A month...
Only a month!?
I swear its been so much longer than a month! Okay technically it has been for us, we did have the whole of last year apart too, although he was in country so most don't count that, but we were living a couple hundred miles apart so screw them it counts!
This is our one month down picture, we are going to do this every month until daddy comes home. I am guessing by the end it will be me crying and rocking my self while they set the house on fire. Too dramatic?
I know I am lucky I have 3 healthy kids and people have it worse, but there are some challenges to that too. I have 3 very active kids, like wake up at 5 up until 10-11 active, loud mostly happy kids. I work from home... I have no family with in 6 hours, I have no real break. I know I could send them to day care but that feels like a cop out. Nothing against working moms that do it, but since I am home, working or not, I can't justify it to myself.
I can honestly say after a little over a year of doing it all, and another year facing me I am already having moments of just over it! I miss my partner, I miss being able to talk about the end and listen to his at bed time. I miss staying up in to the wee hours of the morning talking about anything. Before he left a year ago I knew this would be the hardest part for me the lack of having that person to talk too. Friends are wonderful, and I love talking with them, but there are things I can't say to them that I can to him. Sometimes well meaning friends are the reason I need to talk to him. The comments that are meant supportive but really make you want to slap someone, or drink, cause drinking is better than violence right?
So yes back to the point one month down! Exciting right? Only 11-13 more to go!
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